Recounting Modi.

In 2014, I thought India took a huge step forward. They denied every idea for the sake of having a singularly powerful mandate.

Very reasonable and mature I thought as Indians set aside their other choices to favour the need of the hour. Surgical decision. Let us forget our differences and get what may help a Government work for us better.

Mr Modi gave very strong reasons: Sabka Saath. Sabka Vikaas. Minimum Government. Maximum Governance. Two Clear Objectives. Growth and Development.

In many words, Modi emphasised that if we make BJP powerful, he would compromise upon the popularity missions of their party so that Indians get convinced that the BJP offers competent abilities in leading India.

I believe that a leader recognises the opportunity more than the popularity laced in it. Opportunities well-taken returns many times more glory, I think.

Oh, what an opportunity Modi got?

Wasn’t that a Cinderella dream come true?

After decades a single party formed the Government with a substantial majority. A PM with three-term of leading a state Government successfully. A strong PM candidate. Ambitious. Powerful and willing to take the next step with greater zeal and elan.

What chained Modi to sacrifice the opportunity for India and work towards building trust and faith among the ever loyal segment of the BJP vote bank. I mean 'their' Hindu votes is always with them? The minor Hindu segment with an idea or a notion of their own will never surrender BJP as they cannot reconcile to another. Further, the 29% formulae at best stretches to 31%. Did Modi stoop to a bird in the hand is better than two in the bush? But that's ownership, not inspiring leadership. Its foundation lies in building loyalists, favourites, die hard, herd like concretes. Uninspiring for an evolving people.

Worse, the formula disowns the majority as they want to have a choice, as they wish to consider, or because they want to evaluate.

On the other hand, I would have felt that Modi would have seen the golden opportunity to prove to the vast majority of India that the BJP is a stronger candidate to lead India because it can. Almost as it has reflected at the state levels, based on able governance. 

Do I get a sense that Modi slipped when the time walked through your doors? 

Then on November 8 he emerged to show that he could use the power in him to take a big decision. For the first time since 2014. I say first time as on most other occasions the focus was driven towards the opposition obstructing Modi brilliant ideas to take shape. 

Modi continued rapidly in less than a month to exhibit how the golden move was never secure in its start. The one opportunity that could reflect upon a Modi like giant decision making, he came by poor in decision making, planning and execution. Worse he shook the trust in him. Is he capable in taking able decisions upon the situations that the nation is posed against? when he could not direct his own craft.

Mr Prime Minister. More than what you did, what you said thereafter shakes my confidence in you as a citizen. When you said that having sacrificed his family he had nothing to lose in walking away. Isn't India part of your family? Isn't taking responsibility of one's family along side not as much pride? 

Giving time to work over family commitments is a human reality. The parking boy leaves their home early morning, many miles away from the city for their daily duty and returns late. The soldier on the border leaves their family upon the call of duty. The son goes away to another town upon transfer of duties. It really is no big deal when you abandon your mother and wife to work for India. 

I dig more. What was the contextual relationship of that statement with demonetisation? Why did Modi sound as if he was compelled? I thought the opportunity to address the people was to convince them how he thought his grand plan would work for them?

And then he cried his life was under threat. What was its context when the issue was just demonetisation? 

Even Indira Gandhi or Rajiv Gandhi did not cry that their lives were under threat, when they were really shot dead. Such rare incidents also do not prove that the Indian security system is incompetent. In one struck Modi shook my confidence and faith in the Police, the IB, the para military forces. Mafias will exist. Isn't the state machinery powerful?

Mr Modi is India's PM whether one likes his party or not. His stakes are in the nation. In its people. Why should he weaken my trust and faith in him? Why should he set a doubt that he would leave me high and dry if that comes to? An able head of family never says that they would run away as they had nothing to lose. And I thought the term that he crafted for Kejri ji 'bhagoda' signified incompetence!

As I see India losing its golden opportunity of 2014, I am back in hope and prayers that the brighter side of his leadership makes good the possibilities that still exist to make the lifetime moment of 2014 work for India, even though the first 15 overs were forsaken.